Saturday, March 26th 2021

12:58 A.M.

Dear Cheerio,

Okay. It’s time to make a change. I was born from a coochie without my consent TO BE TOSSED IN THIS WORLD, and yo, you had the same fate too.

Boom! We’re all here. Everything’s in chaos. I have no idea of anything. But, I don’t wanna be a whiny sissy being all like:

“Oh, this world is shitty.” “I have no one.” “You just don’t understand the pain.” “I wish I could be somebody else.”

She’s got silver spoon, he’s good looking, they have huge social circles, they’re smart, omg I wish I was them.

So what? We’re all got different start point in our life, doesn’t mean that we can’t get at the finish line together? Doesn’t mean that I can’t get there duh??

I’ve heard this somewhere, something like “It’s better to do things half-assed than doing nothing at all.” STOP WHINING, GRUMBLING, HATING ON EVERYTHING. Just move your ass and get there.

Too many dishes piling up? Fuck it, just wash some of it. Too lazy to workout? Just jog for 15 minutes, or even 5 minutes.

Whatever you do, at least make some progress out of it. Even it’s not a big one, it’s better than no walking at all.

I suck at making commitments. Bullet journals, diet plans, relationships, work, etc. I know it’s kind of wrong, however I think I haven’t found a method that suits myself.

So, I printed every months this year (excluding January and February since it’s passed). I want to keep track on bad habits and the process of “glowing up” myself both internally and externally. It’s time to be a better person.

I just did my workout today, and oh boy I think I cracked my back bones. It’s been awhile since I sweat because of the pandemic situation. I’m more a sports > exercise person. You’re welcome to invite me to play football, badminton, jogging, cycling, swimming, basketball, or other sports. But, don’t ever. EVER. INVITE ME TO A GYM.

The reason I’m exercising is because I’m terrified of getting sick, as in diabetes, clogged arteries, heart attack, etc. In addition, I’m a sweets fan which may make the situation worse. Those diseases don’t have age restriction, so.. yikes 😡 Because if I want to keep living, I have to live healthily. Otherwise, I’d k*ll myself if I was going to end up as a living corpse. HEALTH MATTERS!!

I decided to wash my face with face wash every night and doing face mask every week. Usually, I’ve only washed my face with water when I’m in the shower lol.

SO BOO YAH! I’m gonna be THAT bitch. Watch out world. Just kidding, I just want to live for myself and not to seek validation from someone else. Period.